“Both Scripture and experience teach that it is we, not God, who determine the degree of intimacy with Him that we enjoy. We are at this moment as close to God as we really choose to be. True, there are times when we would like to know a deeper intimacy, but when it comes to the point, we are not prepared to pay the price involved. The qualifying conditions are more stringent and exacting than we are prepared to meet; so we settle for a less demanding level of Christian living.”
Enjoying Intimacy with God, Discovery House Publishers, 2000, page 10.
This is very challenging because it requires a degree of honesty with ourselves that few of us are willing to exercise. Why let the past dictate your future. Make a conscious decision now to get much closer to God and experience the sweetness of fellowship with Him. Then watch what He will do in and through your life as a result.